A Theory Unlike Any Other

I have never really thought about it before, but a conversation with a friend recently kinda struck me. Actually, it's just a topic he was gonna debate about in his psychology class, which has something to do with the gender role and professions.

Man, who traditionally picks up a "stronger", more violent, more physical work.

Woman, who traditionally picks up household chores, taking care of the family.

Let's touch a little on the religion side. Christian's famous belief of the creation of humankind: God created Adam, then God created Eve. Nobody says otherwise, right? Then again, don't you think that it is the opposite that is rather true? God created Eve first, then only Adam. Why so? Here's a couple of thoughts:

1) Women can dress up like men, people would say something but still widely acceptable. Men, however, cannot dress up like women without embarrassing himself, and it is largely, largely unacceptable even in modern society!
2) Women can have babies. Men can't. Logically speaking, it is rather possible for 2 women to get together and still conceive a baby. However, being that both parents only have the X-chromosome, the child would definitely be a girl. Men...well, I can only think about Arnold Schwarzenneger but that's highly unlikely.
3) Women has double X-chromosome, Men only has one X and one Y, and when you look closer, the Y-chromosome is actually an X missing a leg. Furthermore, there have been speculations that the Y-chromosome in human gene is actually slowly disappearing.

4) Women can hug each other or hold hands and no one will say much. However, when men hug or hold hands.........*stare*
5) Women usually live longer than men.
6) Women can look at other women ("gap lui" in cantonese) and it doesn't really seem wrong. When men look at other men ("gap zai")...it is wrong in so many ways!

It does seem like women are the superior of the human species now, doesn't it?




on a side note, i need one day to be all by myself, myself and no one else. i feel so unlike myself. haih...

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Wah piang eh!! just when i thought my day couldn't get any worse.....



1) Command and Conquer 4: Tiberium Twilight

well, it's only as good as it gets. no base building = no base destroying, capturing nodes to win battles = capture flag, no collecting tiberium the "traditional" way = no refinery and harvesters, unit caps = no attacking en masse.

unbelievable, and i was so darn happy when i first heard about Command and Conquer 4 being released, but now, i'm beginning to lose interest in it. Stupid EA. they've ruined Red Alert 3, now they're ruining C&C 4. despicable!!



2) Facebook's new face

damn, they suddenly changed things around, i just hate it...y can't they give an option to us whether we want the new interface or not, and but the new ones as default to new users. bloody hell!!



3) Onefm's sudden change in webcast

WTF?! i've been happily listening to onefm all the time and u had to tell me that i cannot listen to it anymore other than 6am-1pm and 7pm-12am weekdays (+8 GMT)?! what logic is this? listening to onefm makes me feel connected to home and now they have to limit the time i feel connected? where is the fairness in this world!!?? might as well switch back to 988. >:(

where r u when i wanna talk to u?


on a side note, y do i keep getting the feeling that no one truly understands that i miss home too much to be away for too long...not even my parents seem to understand me anymore. haih....

Voices

It's not even a month since i'm back, and now i feel the same feeling like last semester. i thought it wouldn't be back, considering my schedule is spread out the way i like it. turns out, there are days when i feel lonely, days when i disconnected, days when i yearn to be home.

Voice of my heart screams louder then the voice of my mind. torn between both, i can never make a decision that satisfies both sides. decision based on the heart is emotionally rewarding, but logically unsound; likewise, decision based on the mind is logical, but emotionally unwise. now, the voice of my heart is slowly drowning the voice of my mind; making me unsettled, stirring up my memories and my emotions.

Homesickness is always the chosen topic for debate. my heart says to go home now, my mind says to stay and finish what i've started. my heart misses my family and my friends, my mind knows i will see them again in a few months. my heart screams to be released, my mind keeps my composure.

each complement another, each cannot exist without the other, yet each can never reach an agreement with the other. like a middle man between 2 best friends, can only see but not say a word, yet at the end of the day, both friends will look at you for the ultimate decision. whatever you say, you will definitely incur the wrath of either one and the blessing of another.

not even a month has passed by and i already feel so, i began to wonder if i could actually last 2 and a half more years.

time is moving too fast...and too slow. i feel like years have passed, yet i feel like i have so many things to do.

my heart says i want to see u, but my mind says i can't. reason is simple, i know u won't

on a side note, i have a feeling that comes and goes.

Gerber Remix

Cool knife. wee!!!

saw this in walmart at the beginning of the semester and was thinking about buying it since then. it costs USD$25, that's y it took me a really long time to decide whether to buy and now, finally, i've bought it!!! woohoo!!

it's a folding knife that can wielded in either hand, opened using one hand and a finger through the hole for added grip. but for me, in my spare time, i would just spin the thing closed for the fun of it. nice!! haha

it feels like a really good knife to be used during camping...and i wanna bring it back to Malaysia. problem is, i couldn't find much about the customs regulation online. all they said was knives, they never specify what kind, because there should be certain kind of knives that should be allowed through the customs. haih....Malaysia will always be Malaysia. always post ambiguous things to bite u in the ass both ways.

i just dreamt about u and i miss u. i wanna talk to u, but i never dare to start a conversation because i don't know how to keep it going. maybe nothing has changed for u, but i feel really different. probably what i fear is not everything else to change, but i fear to change myself....and i have changed, to a certain extent.

on a side note, it getting cold again. brrrr

Building A Hotel Over BP House (Malaysian Scouts HQ)

There are news of emerging plans to build a hotel over the Scouts HQ in Malaysia. this probably requires the tearing of the old HQ and replacing it with a hotel, and because of this, many scouts have form opinions about the plan. there are those who do not like the idea at all, and there are those who are in favour.

Building a hotel over the HQ may not be so bad an idea. look at Hong Kong for instance, their Scouts HQ is actually a hotel as well as a HQ and there is a Scout Shop inside too which doubles as a museum. so, building a hotel which doubles as a HQ is, in fact, a very good idea. not only it would lessen the financial burden of the Malaysian Scouts Association, it could mean something good for the scouts travelling from other states or other countries - they could stay in the hotel at a cheaper rate without losing the comfort of a hotel. maybe events and balls for scouts could even be had in the hotel...or even JOTI/JOTA, leadership training etc etc.

even if it doesn't benefit the scouts, it benefits all others. the location is perfect, being near Petaling Street, people could come and shop all they like. not to mention, the hotel will be minutes away from the LRT station, which means, customers could travel to KLCC or other places much easier. furthermore, we might even have a Scout Shop like the one in Hong Kong...though, we once had it but somehow, it disappeared.

With a perfect location, great benefits for scouts and non-scouts alike, showing improvement...there is no reason not to agree to the hotel plan, is there? however, the HQ has been there for a very long time. it was even visited by Lord Baden Powell himself. if i am not wrong, it was there even before World War II. hence, it is a Malaysian heritage and should be considered as one. A Malaysian heritage cannot be demolished under the acts of human but only recontructed with the original image of the heritage and the safety of visitors in mind.

The BP House represented the history of Scouting in Malaysia, the spirit of Malaysian Scouts, the knowledge of Scout Leaders, the experience of the Council Members. it does not just represent scouting alone but all of scouts in the whole of Malaysia. almost every scout would like to see BP house that withstood decades of rain and shine at least once in their lifetime. therefore, for the betterment of the scouts and leaders alike. therefore, BP House cannot be demolished! or so, many says.

i wonder before they really plan to build a hotel over BP House, had they considered other locations? even better, an empty lot. it probably takes more money to demolish a structure than to build one on empty land. on the other hand, i wonder when the hotel plan is finally realised....how many are willing to let go of the past?

a person without a past can have no future

a person who holds on to the past can never move forward



on a side note, i can't find any history of BP House or even pictures of it neither in google nor in yahoo....that really says something.

It's In The Blood

You cannot escape the fate passed down in your bloodline.

The talent you have is in your blood, the skills you have is in your experience.

the following may be completely unrelated to the 2 quotes from above, but you can't deny part of their truth.

my family has been dealing with cars ever since my great-grandfather's era. my great-grandfather worked and improved his car a lot, my grandather used to work as a mechanic and my dad used to love working with my great-grandfather on cars...not to mention, my parents were car sales people when i was born. so, naturally, i'm surrounded by cars for nearly my whole life....more than most people would love to.

however, i'm a little different, being around cars, i have not much of an interest in cars. i can't differentiate many cars from others, i can't tell the name of most cars and i certainly don't talk much about cars. even though so, i recently found out that one of the most effective way for me relax is to drive around alone aimlessly.

the feeling is really strange, like i'm disconnected from the world yet very much connected; very lonely yet not alone at all. contradicting, isn't it?


have things changed, or have i changed?


on a side note, i no longer crave for eggs, but i crave for more hazelnut coffee...>.<

The Balance Of Life

When bad things happen, good events will occur to balance it out, likewise, when happy things happen, unhappy events will occur to balance it out.

A simple saturday that began early morning, i brought my car to the workshop for some final touch up early in the morning. while the mechanics were at it, i went to walk around a bookstore in volusia mall and bought myself a couple of puzzles for myself to play with when i'm bored.

after walking around for a bit, inside and out of the mall, my car was done. then i went to watch a movie with my ex-roommate. was supposed to be just one movie: The Book Of Eli, but somehow, we ended up watching 2 movies: The Spy Next Door.

both movies were good in their own right, the previous is a post-apocalyptic action-adventure movie and the latter an action-comedy movie. we both enjoyed the movie a lot, and i being myself, laughed out the loudest, i suppose.

everything was great the whole day, i safely drove around looking for food, though nearly got sideswiped by a mini-van (curse that piece of sh*t). for once, i don't feel as lonely as i did last semester.

then, when i came home, my dad had to tell me the bad news. some of you may consider it something unimportant, but to me, it very important. my dad told me that my bro sold away our ps2 console......without even consulting me!!!

now, i'm sure some of you will say, "it's just a ps2, ps3 is even better". i can even hear your voices in my head. but ask yourself first, do you have any object that is sentimental to you? actually, i don't care if you do, and much less if you don't. that ps2 has been in my home since it's release. i recall many of my childhood memories when i see that ps2. not to mention, i still play it once in a while....

if i knew my family was gonna sell it, i would have packed that ps2 and brought it here to the US. i'm not there to play it doesn't mean i don't play it anymore. they didn't even bother to ask me about something that represented part of my childhood. they're only telling it to me now AFTER they sold it. what are they gonna do next? sell away my dog because nobody really cares for him anymore?

always telling me what to do....have they ever thought about how i would feel when things i care disappear one by one? i've only been gone for a few days, and a ps2 is gone.....then, will my books, my badges, my keychains and everything in my room disappear when i'm back 4 months later? then, when i asked for them, my mom will say "they're rubbish and a waste of space".

unbelievable, simply unbelievable.




The Balance Of Life




on a side note, i'm craving for eggs now...scrambled eggs...lots and lots of scrambled eggs...